Stressing out much?!

I hate being the first to admit it, but I think I'm feeling the first effects of being stressed out.
Constant sought of worrying that I have to do something, but can't quite bring myself to do it, whatever that something is.

So to keep my mind of it I will talk about my rather uneventful trip to the Grampians.

For starters the unit which was worth $110 a day was not worth it. Straight flat out it was a total ripoff. It was one of those cheap portable things; with an oven, a toilet, a curtained shower, two sinks(shock horror, one in the bathroom one in the what went for a kitchen), a table with six chairs around it, just enough plates and utensils for five people, four bunk beds, and one double bed. Oh and a twelve inch tv, without a dvd player!
However after exploring hall gap for a while we realised why there was no dvd player. The only place that rented out dvds, had enough to fill a small shopping bag,*counting* the videos in that same stand.
The walk however was worth it I guess, about sevn k's long and completely planned by me, on the fly as we were came upon signs that pointed us in directions. I also carried the bag full of water, and the jackets and stuff, as everyone seemed to be dieing from lifting the massive 3 kilo weight worth of water that was in the bag.
So for the most part I lead us( being my sister and brother). Nice place to walk if you don't mind the occasional sheer drop only thirty centimetres away from where you are walking. At one point I couldn't bring myself to go any further, due to the very unsafe nature of the rock, it had recently rained, of course just to spite me, despite my obvious distress at being near such a god awfully unsafe spot, my brother took it upon himself to explore further.
He went out of earshot for about five minutes and I couldn't see him either. I was terrified to be that close to a sheer edge. And I had horrible images of falling off that sheer face, down to a nasty death.
Finally we left there and headed for a more sedate and half dead waterfall instead much to my relief.
I don't mind heights so much, its just heights where a single poorly placed foot can send you plummiting to your death, that I have trouble with.
Anyway we headed back, and my brother shouted us to Icecream, and Fudge.

I've come to the decision that I can clean my room up rather well, hoever maintaining it as clean is a whole different ball game...for me that is. I'm surprised I don't have more bugs in this room.

Anywho, I took a break from wrting this weekend, in fact the only stuff I did do, was write the word Eledor, and a brief description of Wren amounting to about twenty words in total. Instead I read a Terry Prachet book, the Douglas Adams of Fantasy, as I read it once put. Guards! Guards!

It has the best ever intro to a book, in the form of its acknowledgements.

He acknowledges the contribution of the city guard in fantasy stories, the guys who get killed by the hero in many bloody ways, who are only trying to do their job, and feed a family.
The Discworld is awesome!

Sayanara folks

Is blogging really worth it?

The main reason I started blogging was to showcase story ideas and get criticism on them, constructive in nature.

I don't like talking about me, I'm more interested in other people then myself. I'm boring, slightly eccentric maybe but in a boring meandering way.

I like my stories, and I'm excited when I get the chance to share them with others. I've been in the process of planning them for most of my life. They have been influenced by the many books I've read, shows and movies I've seen.

I even decided to try and create an original world for the DnD game I made up for my brother and friend, and have thus far, made another massive world, with numerous sub-plots happening at once. And I plan to write that into a book eventually, when I get the chance to, using the characters those two decided to make as the central characters. Chronicles of Ovaleen is still a Guardian Universe Story, thus it still has the same Pantheon of Gods, and many of the same characters from the others, though as it is a different world, they are also different, not carbon copies of their other identities.

I am a good writer when I set my mind and time completely to it, but as of late the stories I have showcased on this blog, have been hastily put together things, that I wrote in ten minutes. So they are not my best work, possibly verging on my worst and over commarised.

Anyway point I'm trying to make is, I didn't put up this blog to bitch about my life and talk about personal troubles, I put it up to talk about things that interest me, at the moment that's my story. The Real world is in many ways crap and boring to me.
I was actually going to use this blog to write about my characters, but its hard to show how truly complicated most of them are in a blog, I just find it hard to write properly on a computer. Its much more easy to write naturally with a pen and paper.

None of my characters can kill fifty people without raising a finger, or barely raising a finger, except for the ones who happen to be virtually demigods, and they are few and far between, unless you count ordering people to do it for you the same thing.

Now Eledor is more a reflection of me when I'm in a serious mood, hie height is the same as mine, his weight would be the same as mine if I bulked up a little. And he's all about tragedy, almost all of his loved ones died in his arms, he's introverted and aloof due to that fact, and can very easily loose his temper and go berserk when those remaining of those he cares about are put in danger. He finds it hard to fit, when I first started writing Eledor as a character in my stories, a lot of his thoughts and actions reflected what I would've done. Feeling like an outsider and all that. The Saudes Saga particularly focuses on hi as a character.
Though the Realm would give him his most human portrayal as he possesses no special power, his strength and speed are not so superior to the other characters, and he has had less time to experience the world.
Eledor is essentially, personality wise a darker me, not the me I show to everyone but the me I don't show, the angrier and more bitter me, he is also in a way a tragic hero.
My other character Finn, represents a bit more of my traditional role, I take in Roleplaying games, the stand up guy, who fights the good fight, despite the many foes in his path, though again he has a bit of bitterness, and my grumpiness in him when I get a bit stressed.
Aeries is extremely important to the progression of the story, while Eledor remains largely static and slowly changes, Aeries is the character who grows more and more confident, grows up in her attitude to life, and generally develops, into one of the strongest characters of the story.

Now the last post was simply a fifteen minute rant by me, and I got over it, just remember I had people making fun of my story or saying it was crap all through Year ten, so I "REALLY" don't like people saying its boring, it reminds me of that time and I arc up.

Anyway, I'm sleep deprived and slightly grumpy still at the moment.
Let it be known that I will never touch on anything said in the "Screw this" post every again, I don't like looking at those parts of my life that I hate and won't go back there.

Anyway, I don't have to get up till nine or ten tomorrow!
Yay for me!

Screw this!

I don't talk about personal things for several reasons, I could easily alienate everyone I know, if I did.
Deep down I am an incredibly angry person, unsure of his own future whether or not he should be in the course he is in. I had to deal with almost continually being picked on, from grade 3 to year 11(stopped at year 11).
And at one point was nearly molested by another year 7 kid, in defence I stabbed him in the hand with a pen I was holding.
You wanna get into the whole thing, I'm find it difficult being in large gatherings, especially when I'm dragged of to parties, where I barely know anyone. I don't feel like I belong, so I withdraw into my shell so to speak...
My borther before leaving for Melbourne for his operation, told me I was to blame for ruining his life, that I stole most of his friends. Do you know how that felt when you think he might not have been coming back?
The only reason I met his friends is because he dragged me along to a lot of things.
I've been broke for the past three weeks, only five dollars literally to my name!
I don't talk about my personal opinions becasue a lot of people annoy me, and I don't want to hurt them, and they don't often sit to well with others. I'm also perpetually tired because I go to bed at around one in the morning, and get up at seven in the morining, six hours of sleep, instead of nine hours.
I don't have a great job, but because of Uni I can't even work there at all!
I had to deal with the shock that once you reach VCE, the teachers don't care for you being you, they just want you to fit into a program they have decided is the best for you, and then returning to the old way upon reacxhing University.
As many of my friends who knew me from Golden Square say, VCE destroyed me...academically.
I can't talk to girls, I'm to scared to, so my chances of getting a girlfriend are limited, I keep thinking I'll end up like my Great Uncle, a seventy year old bachelor, who doesn't think he's old.
I offer good advice, but rarely follow it myself, making me a hypocrite, and I hate hypocrites.
I want to be a writer but my writing is subpar.
Enough personal crap, now I've had my fucking bitch...

Hello anyone out there?!

Is it just me, or does no one like me anymore? Wait, that is something to do with me...
So where is everyone?
What's everyone been up to, and all that mumbo jumbo...

I'm so lonely...

To ease this lonliness I need people to post comments, I don't feel like anyone reads my entries without comments. I mean come on it takes maybe five minutes to read what I put down, and then all you have to do is write a five or more word comment on what you read.

By the by, Elder Scrolls IV Oblivion is an awesome game.

And it runs on high settings on my new computer!

My friend who told me about the game only got it working on low settings, and it was still a drain on his computer...mine sprints through everything, without any trouble...though it isn't able to do Ultra high...that's reserved for supercomputers.

I have purchased a new computer if no one could guess. Its big, black and silver and has carry handles and stands on it. It also has five fans running in it.

For anyone who cares, here's the specs...

3.2GHZ Pentium 4, 256mb ATI X800 series(special edition), 2GB DDR2 ram, 17' LCD monitor, with built in speakers. Subwoofer enhanced desktop speakers. DVD-RW drive.

When this computer was made 2 years ago, it was worth nearly $5000, I got it for $2000.
Though my only gripe with it is the speakers, which frequently shake loose from the attachment in the back of the computer. So I hve only one speaker working, which can be very annoying, when your playing a game, or listening to music.

I'm a pepsi Max addict, or rather a caffeine addict, I now get headaches if I don't have some form of caffeine a day...surprising, hell no considering the amount of pepsi max I drink all the time.

Anyways that's enough from me

Sayonara

Chronicles of Ovaleen

A long time ago there was a planet named Ovaleen.
Several Gods ruled over it peacefully, Death, Kidari, Culmaryn, Solaryss, Templar, Scorebee, Nazrul, Beelzebub, Shandros, Kilnari and the ancient dragon lords.
Several races came to be on the planet, Eldrasans, the Kilnari, humans and the Aethyran.
Ovaleen itself was divided into four continents, Santaurez, Rudiev, Angelus and Teldai.
Santaurez was a large continent with rich resources and was home to humans, Eldrasans, Aethyran and Kilnari.
Angelus, was the smallest continent, and was in fact a series of four large islands, in a loose ring, they were settled by humans seeking a new life.
Rudiev, was the largest continent vast and uncharted, it became home to every race bar Eldrasans.
Teldai, was a medium sized continent, dominated by thick forests and tall mountains, the ancestral home of the Eldrasans, and the center of the Eldrasan Empire.
Eldrasans were the longest lived and most ancient of the races, and they called Culmayrn their chief diety, in many ways they held a center area to the humans and Aethyran, they had the looks of humans, with the strength and agility of the Aethyran.
Humans were numerous and powerful magically and intellectually and paid homage to Solaryss and Templar as their chief gods. However the gods not happy with just those races decided to "modify" small pockets of humanity, creating stocky short humans, who became known as Dwarves, and short thin intellectually gifted people, who became known as Gnomes.
The Aethyran themselves represented a diverse range of humanoids, ranging from savage beasts, to intelligent and cultured civilisations, and possessed the largest population. The Kilnari were brutal yet intelligent, and sought to wipe the other races out, however they were numerically inferior, thus their efforts were easily stunted.
Kidari became the patron deity of a small group of individuals devoted to nature, and gave them the knowledge of how to use nature's power to assist nature. They became known as the Druidic Council, and quickly grew in size.

About five hundred years ago, a war in heaven occurred, as Nazrul, Shandros and Beelzebub came into conflict with Solaryss, Culmaryn and Templar.
Nazrul the most powerful of the three created what would become known as hell, a place of madness and evil, and created creatures to populate it, known as Nolsaryn or by mortals as demons.
Shandros once well liked as a patron for free living, became the patron for assassins, and thieves guilds.
Beelzebub, created his own people to populate Hell, known as the Desoltros, and corrupted many of the Sireal (angelic beings servants of the gods) to serve him.
At the same time Scorebee descended into madness, as Death transformed further and further into a malevolent being.

The church of Solaryss, a human organisation, was quickly gifted with some of Solaryss's own power, allowing them to defend the mortal realm, or Ovaleen, from the new threat.
The church of Templar came into being at about this time, as Templar, though his servants, created a vast militaristic order of knights and scholars to help the Church of Solaryss.

Four hundred years passed with brief but bloody battles being fought to help protect Ovaleen from the demons, until finally the war came to a head. Nazrul, took on Solaryss, Templar, Culmayn and Kidari in a massive battle over Ovaleen, the end result of the battle was Solaryss's death and Nazrul being sealed in a pocket dimension.
Solaryss's death resulted in an unforeseen reaction within the Church of Solaryss, over half the order went mad, and joined their rival order the Demon Guard, and the rest dwindled in power. The Church once the most powerful human order, was destroyed overnight. Templar worship grew as it became clear that Solaryss's paladins could no longer protect them, from evil.

However Nazrul's imprisonment was only temporary...
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That is a kinda introduction to Chronicles of Ovaleen, showing a bit of the past major events, I've left a lot out but that's because I didn't think of it. Tell me what ya think if you dare.

And also as I was a fan of Steve Irwin's show despite not watching all that much of it, I would like to say, that even though its been said by many many newspapers at least forty times, he will be missed. And my sympathy goes out to his family for their loss.

Not much but my fingers hurt now...

Goodbye and Goodnight, and Good morning

A long time ago, in a galaxy far far away...

I remeber a time when I was very little and those words, appeared on the television screen, I could not get enough of Star Wars...
Know what, it hasn't changed I still love Star Wars, even the three prequels, even the scene with Vader screaming out noooooooooo! I watch it now, I'm not making connections to other films, James earl Jones, is the best voice actor for that role. After I got over the hilarity of that scene when I first watched it I don't find it funny. But then I know much more then the average movie goer about the backstory, and the motivations of the characters, in this universe that I so love.
The original inspiration of my writing, all comes back to Star Wars, the epicness, the characters, sure they changed every year, since then.
But I remember a time where I was making up stories in my head about the Empire being evil, and replacing the Rebels with a small fleet of ships run by, get this...SNAKES!
And then we hit the dinosaur phase, and suddenly dinosaur planet came into being, a massive planet half the size of the galaxy. And the only thing that lived on it were dinosaurs. Oh yeah then I started incorporating the power rangers into my story, however instead of being noisy martial artists they were shape changing almost god like beings. And they were the protectors of the world, this was when I was in grade one and two just so you know.

If only I had that creativity now days...but hey, I could barely write so I must say I have improved in other ways.
Star Wars got me interested in the whole writing, making up stories thing, and recently I have rediscovered it so to speak, good ole'Wookiepedia...even though its not that old.

Anyway, I think I'm going to start writing again soon, I guess I'm kinda in the recharge phase I usually get to at this point of the year, start playing games and reading books with good stories, recharge the batteries for a storm of creative, reworking of my story, or I should say stories.

Anyway, seeya on Wednesday.[